You Fight Me

Fighting with her gets so old sometimes. The past week or so has been fine, last night we watched The Office (absolutely hilarious by the way, I am so glad it's back on) and the night got off to a great start because I had told my sister that AS was going to be on TV, and she didn't want anybody to know. Well pardon me, but every time you come over you spend half an hour talking to my sister, so I was under the impression that you were friends with her. AS was also upset because I asked my sister to not talk about it in front of her friends.

She has this problem with letting people know she's accomplished something, which is a fairly rare occurrence for her so you'd think she would want to show it off a little. She's so concerned with her reputation, she actually complained when TB let it slip to his friends who she cheated with, because she was worried about her reputation...not because she cheated on him and they broke up, or anything, but because she was worried about what people thought about her.

It's the same reason I'm not allowed to tell anyone that we hook up all the time or what we're doing, it would damage her reputation if people knew that we were more than just friends because I'm not good enough for her or something...

She thinks I read too far into everything, I think I have her all figured out and she just won't admit how much she needs me.

Meanwhile, D is certainly making his presence known. Last night, he got off at nine and he knew that AS and I were hanging out, so he called *her* to hang out, not me. I told him good luck, because he's already dealing with another very similar girl and I cannot see why in the world he would want to get involved with another one.

Come Back To Bed

D's parents got remarried this weekend and they were out of town, so a couple friends and I went over to enjoy his mostly empty house. With a case of Grain Belt to enjoy, a guitar, and a nice bonfire going, the night seemed to be going pretty well.

Before we had to start cockblocking, that is.

Last time D got drunk, I was his designated driver so I was sober all night. We get to my friend L's house, and he just cannot keep his hands off another girl who was there. She's clearly uncomfortable, and he just won't let it go. She'll get up to go to the bathroom, he stands up until she gets back. At the time I chalked it up to his being drunk and let it go.

Fast forward to last night.

D is alllll over AS all night. There's only about six people there, so it's very obvious that she's uncomfortable but sort of unsure what to do about it. So my friends and I start playing cockblock, and I'll tell you I've never worked harder in my life. He just would not get off her, he would literally force his way into a seat next to her, he tried to kiss her in full view of everyone there, he kept trying to get her away from everyone else. I mean I really like this guy, but he is just another person entirely when he starts drinking.

Finally the night starts winding down, I thought that the girls should take the basement, I'd stay upstairs, and D would take his own room. But of course, I get them settled and he somehow manages to pull AS up to his room. I wait five minutes, grab my other friend and we go up and cockblock for (thankfully) the last time. AS heads downstairs and I'm just drifting off to sleep when I hear the basement door open.


I finally got her off.

About time.

Let It Die

AS and I have barely spoken for 10 days and she finally caved tonight and asked if I wanted to go to Perkins with her. I said yes because I missed her so much this past week and I have only been waiting for her to call or write or text or email, or anything, just to know that she still wants to be around me.

So we fought on and off all night and I remembered why I stopped speaking to her in the first place.

It reminded of a scene from The Office where Jim is speaking to the camera after transferring. "When I saw Dwight I started to feel bad about all those pranks I played on him. And then Dwight spoke."

It's the same way with AS. I check my phone all the time, or my Facebook, hoping to see something from her. But when we hang out...she's so demanding, annoying, she doesn't know anything about the real world and she STILL doesn't treat me like just a friend but she won't commit to dating because I'm not good looking enough I guess.

I've been spending some time with BH, the girl who let it spill to her boyfriend that AS and I slept together. Long story short, it got out to the rest of the world and AS watched what was left of her reputation crumble. That was months ago, and the world has moved on. AS didn't lose any friends she hadn't already lost after cheating on TB anyways, but she apparently holds her reputation above all other things. So AS is mad because I hung out with BH, and I didn't call to check up on her when she was sick, and blah blah blah I don't act like I want to be her friend.

If being a friend to you entails acting like your boyfriend, then no, I don't want to be your friend.

Can't Finished What I Started

I decided to try a little experiment this past week. I hung out with AS on Friday, she texted me that night and I didn't text back. I spent the night at L's new apartment, which was pretty fun...the next day was not so fun, I had a caffeine IV going all day consisting of Red Bull and coffee. Sunday, nothing. Monday, I went online to see if she would talk to me first and finally after an hour she did. She asked if I was just going to ignore her and I acted perfectly normal. I asked how her weekend went and she said well I was sick, but you wouldn't know, would you? I guess I wouldn't, but since when was it my job to check up on her? Maybe if we were dating. MAYBE, I would've called her.

So I tried to strike up conversation with her Tuesday and she blew me off. Yesterday I invited her to a movie, and around 2 am she finally got back to me. After I told her who was going she made some excuse about having plans...even though I know she doesn't have other friends to make plans with. Tonight she texted saying she was free, and we talked briefly online...it ended with her saying "I don't know if I want to see you tomorrow Will."

We'll see how this ends.

Fatboy

I finally got the chance to hang out with L again, and check out her new apartment. On Friday night, a friend and I trekked down town. We all headed off to a free school sponsored concert. We only caught the last band, a group by the name of Espionage, they actually were really good, sort of reminded me of MCS. Fast poppy rock with tons of cool synth stuff thrown in for good measure. All in all it was a pretty random nights, I went with my friend to drop off someone's sweatshirt and wound up watching Survivor Man and drinking Grain Belt for an hour, then ate a bunch of McDonalds and fell asleep watching The Office.

I was planning to ask L out, or at least tell her how I felt. I talked to a few friends and asked for advice, and the general consensus is that I need to tell her how I feel, and ask her to choose whether she wants to start dating me, or just stay friends.

Total amount of fast food consumed:
1 Big Mac
23 chicken McNuggets
1/2 Chicken Sandwich from BK

Hence the title of this post.

EDIT: Ooooo 50 posts!