AS is gone again in CA, for another three weeks. By the time she gets back I'll have started school, and the world will have moved on. I've been thinking a lot about her and I already miss her. We fooled around a few times this past week, and for once I think we both enjoyed it without any regrets. We had a couple really fun nights hanging out and watching movies, as well as climbing the local middle school with some friends. I still hate being treated like a boyfriend when I'm not, I tend to get defensive when she acts too girlfriend-ish. Example: on Thursday night, I made plans to hang out with LW and AS flipped out and went into her whole "you don't wanna hang out with me, wah wah wah" speech. It's just annoying because we didn't even have plans.
I was talking to a friend of mine and he said that he is his gf's only friend right now.
That's how I feel.
I failed miserably on my promise to quit drinking, but I'm trying hard not to do it as much as last summer and in that I think I succeeded at least. Deleted all my porn today too...it's really a lot harder than I thought it would be. I've been looking at that stuff since...6th grade? Now to just get rid of it seems weird. It's hard to change who you are, even if you really believe in what you're doing.
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