Oh, It Is Love

The last week has been pretty insane. After that conversation I had with AS she had a complete meltdown and started drinking the next day, by herself. We were supposed to go to a friend's house after work and watch a movie but instead we went back to my house and hooked up. I told her that I lied about everything, that I still liked her and wanted her...but I guess the question is do I really? Two nights later I got my sister drunk with her, and the same thing happened. I promised her earlier in the day that I wouldn't do anything, but the way she talked, she was practically begging me to get on her. So that's that, I don't think I've ever got so much action in such a short time in my life.

I still don't really know what to do about her...after I told her I wasn't interested, I felt so free. I mean I felt like crap because I knew how much it upset her, and we are still friends, so I don't like making her mad or whatever, but I've certainly been done sugarcoating things for awhile now. She told me too that she felt relieved when I told her that, because she doesn't want me to hurt.

Too bad her sister isn't a year or two older, because I would totally hit that.