Dear Valentine

Well I guess she didn't mean any of what she wrote, or any of the stuff she's been saying about him for the past month or so. What am I supposed to do? I don't think I'm in love with her any more...L coming home has really changed my expectations in a girl and made me realize that I can hope for something better, and that it's really not that hard to find.

All those things I said to AS though...I meant them, I really did. I've never felt this way about anyone before, but I can't see us working together. I'd be too pissed, and I don't care about half the things that bother her intensely. For example, she yelled at me for throwing bottles into the woods. Ok, I'm not one to dump trash on the ground intentionally but I'm also not going to lose sleep over throwing a few bottles into a forest, it was fun, I was a little pissed off at the time so it felt good. Lots of things like that are what bother her. And those kinds of things are stuff that I could care less about. L is just simple...more my type.

I just want a resolution. I want her to start dating someone, or I want L to make a clear move to show she's interested. Or I want us to be together, kind of...things would have to change.