Luckie Street

I had an interesting night.

I've been talking back and forth with a buddy of mine for awhile about maybe jamming with him, and that sort of coincided with another idea I've been kicking around for a long time, which was putting together a cover band and having an awesome party at my house sometime this summer. (Fingers crossed, that could still happen) So I head over there tonight and we played for awhile, a lot of people were there at first but then almost everybody bailed. Pretty soon it was me, my friend, and one of his friends who turned out to be pretty cool. He had a lot of cool stuff to say, a lot of it was high school drama crap but then it sort of turned to just a general discussion about life. We covered just about everything from alcohol, to girls, to karma, to making money, you name it and we probably spent at least some time talking about it.

The main thing that really hit me hard though was his advice on playing to your talents. He said something along the lines of "I'm not good at playing keyboard. I like it, but I'm not good at it. I know when I'm beat." It made me wonder, what am I really good at? In my opinion, I'm not really that talented at anything. I can play some guitar, I know a little bit of photoshop, I sketch or draw occasionally, I'm not terribly out of shape but I'm not ripped either, I'm not a player but I'm not a total nerd either, my grades are pretty average and I don't really try that hard.

I'm just trying to figure out where I stand in life I guess, as far as who I am. What do I want to be? Do I want to have all those skills I listed above, and do I even have the capacity to obtain them? Why haven't I tried harder previously in life, so I could be fluent in a language by now and starting on my second, or been more well read, or a better guitar player, or have more money in the bank? Honestly, why didn't I figure all this out back in high school? I could be so much better off now if I had just put forth more effort back then.

I need a better work ethic or something, but I'm not sure how to go about getting one I guess. Life seems like the same old cycle all the time, I work, hang out with friends, sleep, then work some more. I never have time to accomplish anything new, but maybe it's just that I'm not using my time efficiently enough. Who knows?