I Want to Love You Madly

So we hooked up again.

I had this huge talk with M or whatever, and it made me upset and so resolute, but all that just melts when I see her. I don't want to be away from her, I want to be with her always. I don't want to be over her, I want to be in love with her. We had this huge talk in my kitchen for like an hour, and then we moved into the living room to start watching the OC. (Season 3, one more to go!) After awhile I stopped it and apologized, and that I wanted to go back to being nice and friends again, so she layed down and we started spooning. I began rubbing her tummy, slowly working my way down...and things just kinda went from there.

Since then she's been understandably pissed, I've been so moody lately and indecisive about her. One day I want her, the next I don't. I finally made up my mind. Despite everything M said, despite every piece of advice I've gotten from my other friends: I love this girl. I want to be with her, forever. I want her to be mine. And that's all there is to it.

I want to love her madly.