Someday You Will Be Loved

Interesting few nights.

I saw B again, for the first time since Stout. We hung out and watched 300, and then an episode of the show Weeds (which I loved, btw) and she put her head on my shoulder...I didn't know what to do. I mean I'm not even into her other than as a friend. I should be, I guess. Lots of common interests plus we did make out the first night we met. Thank the alcohol for that one I think. E thinks we should go out but I just don't feel that spark like I do with AS, and pretending to like B is not healthy/nice for her at all, so that's not the solution.

Probably should just talk to her about it and tell her how I feel, but I am really dreading it. I feel like I may have led her on with that note I left her, but I honestly wasn't really even thinking when I wrote it, I was still drunk and didn't want to leave her with nothing, you know?

AS and I have had a couple fun nights. I took her out to dinner and a movie, we've hung out and watched some OC (finally, I was going into Seth Cohen withdrawal I think) and she actually got her wisdom teeth pulled today. I went over around 9 PM after doing some errands and stuff, watched most of Happy Feet (weird movie, there's like this underlying political agenda beneath the whole thing, very liberal) and some more OC. This is horrible, but she had been texting all night so when she left to brush her teeth I started looking through her phone. I wish to God I wouldn't have because the text's to R were so depressing. All about how sexy and caring and sweet and sensitive he is...that girl will never ever love me the way I love her, and I will always love her the way I do. I need another girl...so badly. Just even someone else to like, to get over AS.

Kill me quick.