Several Ways to Die Trying

Finally saw AS today, for the first time in 3 weeks...and it wasn't at all like I expected. Over the past few weeks I've grown so distant from her. There are too many turn offs and not enough turn ons for me to ever be involved with I think. She's so self centered, terribly materialistic, and unreasonable, all the time. Everyone is like that some of the time, I just can't deal with it all the time.

She calls to tell me that R saw Jack Black. So what? He's a human being, just like the rest of us, he just happens to be very blessed and has the gift of acting, so people know his name. Big deal, no reason to hyperventilate. But that's exactly what she does. R knows all these celebrities, he wears good jeans, he might be on CSI, blah blah blah I hope all that material stuff makes you happy. I would love you til the day you die, but I can't buy you True Religion jeans so you're not into me. Bullshit.

The whole day she kept telling me how much she missed me, how much she loves me. Then show me. Be different. Show me that you respect my opinions as much as I have tried to respect yours. But she's no different at all. I finally told her about B, and she freaked out. It hurt her, that I didn't tell her right away, and...she was jealous. And I was happy. It felt good to know that now she knows a fraction of the pain I felt every time she hooked up with another random guy that would do nothing for her. Bitter sentiments, I know, but I'm done putting up with it. Time to move on. She had me at hello and she turned me down, her loss.

Then the night comes to an end and my neighbor is drinking, but on a limited supply of alcohol. AS wasn't going to spend the night but she somehow weaseled her way into it, so she could drink. And she kept saying, "Well you introduced me to it!" So what, doesn't mean you have to drink as often as you can and go to such extreme measures to get it. So I convince my friend to give me some of his liquor, not a lot, enough to get my neighbor and her friend done up, and she is all "Can I have some? I just want like two shots." Why, so you can feel good about yourself or something? The whole thing was just pathetic. She kept stealing drinks from one of the girls...it was just one of the lamest things I have ever seen her do.

I'm so over her. All I needed was some time away. (and maybe a random hookup)